Undiagnosed gut issues made me a stoner with disordered eating

First published on my blog in 2023

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I was born via c-section, rejected breastmilk, and was on antibiotics a lottttt as a toddler, and have a gene mutation that makes me predisposed to gut issues and autoimmune disease. All of this lead to an underdeveloped gut microbiome, which resulted in years of undiagnosed issues such as eczema on my face, neck, and arms, cystic acne, extreme fatigue, diarrhea, puking a lot, and so much more. I saw countless doctors who ran tests and either told me nothing was wrong, or that I had a “lazy personality” or was “just anorexic.”

I didn’t know that I was eating a bunch of foods I not only couldn’t digest, but which were wrecking my gut leading to malnourishment. The very foods doctors told me to eat more of (butter, full fat milk, lots of bread, etc.) were the foods leading to my puny size that was getting me misdiagnosed with anorexia. Forcing myself to eat food I couldn’t process lead to disordered eating…